Smelly Roses!

For most people, the last few weeks would probably be described as relaxing, and maybe even fun. That's not the case for me. For me, the last few weeks have been a trial in patience. You see, patience has never been my strong suit. I don't know why but I always feel rushed and often think that everyone else should be as well. Especially when it comes to work!
It's not that I don't like my job, like any other it has it's ups and downs. Lately though, I've found it very difficult to find contentment with it. You see, I drive truck over the road with my wife. It's not the easiest lifestyle, and very seldom accommodating for any type of relaxation. That's why I'm good at it. It's a high pace, high speed job and I LOVE that. Lately tho, we've been sitting around....A LOT! There hasn't even been a reason to have my wonderful wife on the road except that the court requires her to have a job to pay her child support. If that wasn't the case, There really wouldn't be any reason for her to sacrifice being at home. I got into this occupation because I heard it paid well, and I like to travel. Thought what the heck, why not get paid for doing what I enjoy. That was 12 years ago. Since then, I've become really really good at what I do. I have clocked over a million miles behind the wheel, and only had 2 minor accidents in the 12 years I've been doing it. I've trained about a dozen other drivers and won a couple of safe driving awards. All of this makes it sound like I might be a valuable piece of the driving community. I know how to run hard and thats what I like to do. It didn't use to be unusual for Allie and I to cross the country 3 times in a week. Now it seems its unusual for us to cross 2 state lines in the same day.
I say all of this to come to one point. God is working in me. He is teaching me lessons in patience. I've never been one to be patient before. As I said earlier, I feel like I'm always in a rush. Well, I'm being forced to put the brakes on. I'm being given the time to do things that He must think are important. Like Bible devotions every day. Discipling my wife in the faith, and growing deeper roots for myself. I feel that my uncontentment in my job is even there for a purpose. I think that there are better things for me out there than being a truck driver. I believe that when God called me into leadership at the age of 10 He meant it. I now believe that He has not taken that calling off me. So, in my inpatience with work, God is still working. Granted, patience has to be learned, but He's still using me despite my inpatience. And I am learning. I gave up fighting with dispatch for more miles. I've determined that we're going to lean more on God. He is the one in control weather or not we like it. I'm learning that taking time for Him and me is not a sin. I'm learning that there is a purpose to the trial. So, I'm learning to stop and smell the roses.